Archive | September 2014

Hindsight

his death created
choice-less changes
within my mind
time to reflect
only after
unsuccessful suicide

scars of fate
dormant deep in my mind
until triggered to life
by his death
to cause my death
embattled body
keeps fighting

i’ve nothing to sing
no words to my song
lines bear no notes
even you have fallen
below the staff
life no longer
registers

guessing the light within
was stronger than the desire
to snuff it out
more life to be embraced
day by day
step by step
moment by moment

calm washes over me
hoping my shades of heaven
are as imagined
only to wake up
cursing my fate
until finally
living makes sense

a thousand desires

cannot compete with one

subconscious death message

shades of his sin
wash over me
deep into subconscious
with news of his demise
wreaking havoc
me vs. me
in life vs. death