Hindsight

his death created
choice-less changes
within my mind
time to reflect
only after
unsuccessful suicide

.

Scars of Fate

scars of fate
dormant deep in my mind
until triggered to life
by his death
to cause my death
embattled body
keeps fighting

.

No Words

i’ve nothing to sing
no words to my song
lines bear no notes
even you have fallen
below the staff
life no longer
registers

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Step by Step

guessing the light within
was stronger than the desire
to snuff it out
more life to be embraced
day by day
step by step
moment by moment

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Shades of Heaven

calm washes over me
hoping my shades of heaven
are as imagined
only to wake up
cursing my fate
until finally
living makes sense

.

One

a thousand desires

cannot compete with one

subconscious death message

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Shades of Sin

shades of his sin
wash over me
deep into subconscious
with news of his demise
wreaking havoc
me vs. me
in life vs. death